Tuesday, October 28, 2014

~It'sAboutTimeIToldTheLiceStory~

Picture, if you will,
ME,
with a 4 year old,
a 21 month old,
and 9 months pregnant with my third child.
And when I say 9 months, I mean 9 months and a week.
Huge and miserable doesn't even come close.

Now, imagine if you will, a mere 3 weeks prior,
my discovering a SIGNIFICANT head lice infestation 
in the heads of my 4 year old, my almost 2 year old, AND myself.
I cried. 
and cried
and cried.
Brad brought home enough RID kits to abolish all lice in the Midwest.
He scrubbed and picked and picked and scrubbed.
I scrubbed and picked, picked and scrubbed for DAYS. 
I changed sheets every day.
I vacuumed every sofa, chair, mattress, and square inch of carpet twice a day for weeks.
I'm NOT kidding or exaggerating. 
I was beside myself.

Did I mention, I lived 24 hours away from everyone I had ever known,
With a husband who was in the middle of his orthopedic residency 
who routinely worked 80+ hours a week? 

You get the picture.
It was not the rosiest of times.

My precious Mom had flown out to help me the week leading up to 

and a couple weeks after my delivery. 

She, the two kids, and my pregnant self were in the Chipotle parking lot.
She twisted, turned around, and leaned towards the back seat to feed a McDonald's fry to my 21 month old.

"Oh." she winced.
"That hurt my back"

Long story short, no later than a day or so afterwards, she could not move.
When I say, "could not move", I mean, she could. not. move.

She was white as a sheet with pain.
The pain meds Brad got for her made her vomit.
She was ridden with pain and frustration over her inability to do the thing she had come to do
which was to HELP me…..her "great with child" daughter.

Daddy, who was scheduled to come out, I believe ON my due date, called the night before he was to leave. 
He said the simplest thing to my sweet, devastated, tough as nails, down in her back Mom.
"Hold on. Reinforcements are coming."
Simple as it may be,
it moves me to tears all these years later.
If you knew his jovial nature
his "no quit" attitude
his Marine Corp qualities
his devotion to his family
and his humor,
you would understand the weight that simple statement carried with all of us.

Things were h.a.r.d. but there was enough grit and determination 
that we would get through it.
Daddy wouldn't' quit on us.
While we had to hold the line til he got there, he was coming to see us through.

Maybe it's all a bit dramatic, but for me, it is a picture of the best kind of love, leadership, and devotion.
It's the attitude I want to have in this life.
No matter what is going on around me, God promises to supply my every need.
Maybe it will be by miraculous, Divine intervention
maybe it's through a friend
a stranger
or a family member.
Any way He chooses, He will supply my needs.

My friend and pastor recently talked about 
"no matter the storm around you, there's peace to be had within in you."

Isn't that an awesome truth?

Being miserable is a choice.
and one I don't want to make.

Things may not always be happy
But you can find peace in the midst of the storm.

I'm grateful for family
For a God who loves me more than my own earthly father,
For friends I can call on a moment's notice,
And for "peace that passes ALL understanding" (Philippians 4)


My Dad recently reminded a struggling someone that their banner should be this:

"God sent His son
They called Him Jesus
He came to love
Heal and forgive
He lived and died
To buy my pardon
An empty grave 
Is there to prove
My Savior lives

Because He lives
I can face tomorrow
Because He lives
All fear is gone
Because I know
He holds the future
And life is worth the living
Just because He lives"

If you know Him, HE holds your future.
Trust Him with it.





~stacey








Saturday, October 18, 2014

~40~

So as it turns out, turning 40, is not nearly as scary as it seems.

I know because I reached this milestone recently.

I've never paid much attention to the hysteria that is associated with becoming a certain age, and the implications that that particular number damns you to being "old".

I hold to the firm belief that every day spent above ground is a good day. (which may show a hint of my own ignorance as it relates to my understanding of eternity with Jesus and just how awesome and euphoric that will be….thank you Lord for loving me in my stupidity)

I have found that, with the exception of turning 26, every birthday I'm blessed enough to see, is nothing but a Providential gift. …..and one that I happily receive.
(26 was an emotional birthday. I had just had a miscarriage and Brad was in his 3rd year of medical school…..gross)

Part of why I love where I am….

As it relates to my physical appearance…..
It most likely, is not going to get any better…..I will hold my own as long as I can but let's be honest….we are ALL aging…..
so I may as well enjoy what I got while I got it before what I got is gone.
I figure when I'm 60, I'll LONG for this 40 year old body.
I'm pretty content in that regard.

As it relates to my (usually) sweet husband…
we are committed.
in it for the long haul.
I love 17 years in
even with all the bumps, bruises, hurts and irritations
because every year survived
is a year of choosing love
and choosing love ALWAYS brings reward.
always.

I recently had an epiphany…..
I don't have to convince him that he is in the wrong.
I can respond rightly to just about anything
without holding a grudge
without pouting
without being condescending.
the results are mind blowing.




As it relates to my little chickens:
I've come to understand that they are each their own little individuals.
On the surface, this seems obvious
but at the root,
accepting your children
with their strengths AND weaknesses
is a game changer.
No longer do you feel the need to say,
"Don't be that way"
or
"why do you do that?"
Nor do you subconsciously shame them
for their idiosyncrasies, that at times, drive you absolutely c.r.a.z.y.

Yes, it is my job to help my little people work on their junk,
to tweak the things that need to be tweaked
to be sandpaper to hopefully help them manage their rough edges.
but it's a fine line…..
see, loving them right smack dab in the middle of their little weirdnesses,
takes away the embarrassment and frustrations
even when you are training teaching, and rearing.





As it relates to life in general:
The more I go, the less I care about frivolous, temporal things.
There are still, and always will be hiccups…..
the temptation
to worry about things I can't control,
to stew over people's perceptions,
to waste today fretting over yesterday or tomorrow
but every day I live,
the truth of God's Word is more and more my life line...
and the promise of eternity where I answer only to Him,
motivates me to measure my actions and motives by my heart
because the motive of my heart is all that matters.

I go to bed nearly every single night with 
visions of loose ends dancing in my head
my to-do list only half crossed out
full dirty clothes hampers and
weeds poking through the pine straw.
BUT most nights,
I leave the undone undone…..and it's okay.
I set my mind on things above
I think on the good things and 
settle myself on the notion that
we will live to fight another day.

~I'm a fan of 40.





~stacey